Something very strange happened today. I was nearly out of produce, probably not even enough to last the rest of the day, so I definitely had to shop today. After a simple breakfast, Erin and the kids and IÂ piled intoÂ the car to do our usual weekly shop. IÂ turned the key to start the car and –Â dead battery. The headlights weren’t left on overnight or anything like that, and the headlights have an auto shutoff feature anyway. The carÂ is only 21 months old andÂ seemed to beÂ working fine the previous day.
At this point I’m thinking, “Oh great… did I manifest this as a way of sabotaging my raw trial after what I wrote at the end of yesterday’s entry?”
Anyway… we get a jump start and a new car battery and do a big shop, but I felt differently about it this time. As I’m puttingÂ various fruits and vegetables into the shopping cart, it somehow seems wrong to me. On my previous shop, I was attracted to the vibrant, living energy of the produce. But on this shop I sense nothing but an empty void. Everything I buy feels lifeless and hollow. I feel no attraction to it at all.
Could I have been the one who was putting the energy there in the first place? Was I assigning some quality to that produce as a result of my assumptions and expectations?
WhenÂ we got home, I made a smoothie. ItÂ felt like I was downing empty calories. I couldn’t perceive the life energy that should have been there. It filled my stomach butÂ provided no satisfaction. It was just empty matter.
My physical and mentalÂ energy levels were fine the whole day — no problems there at all. But some kind of non-physical energy seemed to beÂ stuck at zero the whole day and wouldn’t budge.
I stuck to the diet, but it seemed a pointless exercise. I was merely going through the motions. Whatever energy I was putting into this way of eating seems to have gone somewhere else.
I don’t know whether to label this a good day or bad day, so I won’t label it as either.
I didn’t have any greens today, partly because I ran out before the shop. I’ll be sure to include some tomorrow.
My weightÂ went back upÂ 0.4Â poundsÂ to 178.8. Net weight loss isÂ 7.2 pounds inÂ 19 days.
4 Fuji apples (764g)
397Â calories, 1g fat, 106g carb, 2g protein
- 2 mangos (402g)
- 2 clementines (200g)
- 2 tangelos (198g)
449Â calories, 2g fat, 116g carb, 6g protein
There are 4 clementines in the photo, but after eating 2 of them, I swapped in 2 tangelos for the other 2 clementines.
- raw walnuts (28g)
- smoothie:Â 3 bananas (358g),Â coconut waterÂ (375 ml), ice
574Â calories, 20g fat, 100g carb, 11g protein
Most of the fat was from the walnuts. The coconut water (which IÂ got directly from a coconut) had less than a gram of fat. That’s just an average figure for coconut water, since coconut water can vary in its fat content based on the age of the coconut.
1 small watermelon (880g)
264Â calories, 1g fat, 66g carb, 5g protein
It tasted good but still seemed lifeless somehow.
- okra (50g)
- cucumber (72g)
- 2 bananas (258g)
256Â calories, 1g fat, 65g carb, 4g protein
1940Â calories, 25g fat, 453g carb, 28g protein
439mg sodium, 61g fiber, 318g sugar
11% of calories from fat, 5% from protein, 84% from carbs
I feel like Charlie Brown. Good grief! This experiment took a weird turn in the past 24 hours.
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